I HATE THE GENDER BINARY IN FASHION

FACT: I am taking hormones and planning surgery to make my body appear, outwardly, for all intents and purposes, male.

FACT: I get warm, giddy feelings when my wife calls me her husband or when someone calls me "sir."

OPINION: BOY CLOTHES ARE BORING.

FACT: I still like some PRETTY GIRLY SHIT and sometimes I might even want to wear MAKEUP.

FACT: I am tired of hearing the "screeching brakes" noise in my head every time I see an article of clothing or accessory I like because "guys don't wear that girly shit, I can't like that anymore."

FACT: What I wear is my choice, but, right now, I can't pass if I wear everything I want.

FACT: If I am restricted to wearing what I need to wear to pass, I feel miserable.

There. I said it. I'm not miserable as a boy. I'm miserable being limited to boy clothes. I mean, what the fuck, fashion? Men's clothes haven't changed since, like, the 1980s or something (minus the surfer jams) and formalwear hasn't changed much since the mid-1900s. And men don't wear nice clothes out anymore, either. Nobody wears hats or jackets as part of regular attire.At least the 60s and 70s were a little funky. Kinda wish I'd lived back then-- there was less of a difference between men's and women's clothing.

But I digress. I guess I already made my point. I was starting to wonder if I was doing the wrong thing, but now I realize it's just a case of being programmed with societal gender norms, and my desire to pass conflicting with my desire to express myself.

Sorry, mother. Still not a girl.