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I don't wanna talk about it. This will be my last entry for a while, until I have something juicy like a new relationship or something big like I finally made something again.
I'm sick to death of talking about "it," "it" meaning gender, and here I am, writing about why I don't want to talk about it. Well, how about a happy little bulleted list?
I'm sick to death of talking about "it," "it" meaning gender, and here I am, writing about why I don't want to talk about it. Well, how about a happy little bulleted list?
- Do I have the time to listen to me whine? The answer is, increasingly, NO
- I feel like my whole life is getting taken over by GENDER. Gender GENnnnnDER. Conversations, journal entries, appointments with TWO psychologists. Like some obsession. Normal, healthy people don't sit around and think about their gender all day, they just are what they are, full stop.
- I'm DONE, FED UP, SICK OF, the nomenclature, the pithy little words we have to use to describe the difference between sexual preference, gender identification, gender expression, ET CETERA. Can't I just be me and walk away?
- I'm tired of doing things like saying "hello wife!" and being greeted by "hello, husband" as if we need reminders, because that implies hesitation, a need for reprogramming and processing and processing and processing and processing and I'm just DONE with these kindergarten games. If we slip up once in a while, so what? We correct and move on.
- I'm tired of the endless introspection, "Oh no, I liked a flower, maybe that means I'm really a girl! A plant girl!" NO! I am Morgan Edwin Odysseus Wagner, and this is MY odyssey, and I don't have any obligation to take anyone with me or explain it to anyone or ever get back if I don't want to.
My gender is rooted in the masculine, but the way I express that masculinity is my own damn business and I'll wear fur and paint my nails and put on eye shadow if I want to, and it doesn't make me any less of a man, Like, DUH. THERE ARE NO MEN LIKE ME and yet there are millions.
- I AM TAKING T FOR SOME REASON AND I WANT TOP SURGERY AND I LIKE MALE PRONOUNS BUT I THINK I AM GENDER FLUID AND I AM NEVER GOING TO BE HAPPY PUT PUT IN A BOX OR MAYBE I AM JUST NEVER GOING TO BE HAPPY AND I'M SO CONFUSED
- I sound half my age WTF
- I
DON'TKNOW WHO I AM AND FUCK YOU
- Maybe i am a plant girl
