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As a man...
Mar. 9th, 2019 12:21 pm Some unpacking.
In a previous entry, I said I had some trouble standing up and saying that I am a man, because of all the negative connotations that go with that word. Call me a boy, call me a guy, call me a transguy, call me a son-of-a-bitch, I don't care. But "MAN" is hard. This entry is an attempt to get me more comfortable with the idea of being what I am.
As a man, I will:
I think that's a good start. I don't have to, and don't want to be, Arnold Schwarzenegger or John Wayne. I can't relate to the super-masculine, look-at-my-muscles culture, and I don't want to. I will be my own man. Morgan Edwin Odysseus Wagner is a fabulous, artsy, pansexual, polyamorous man, and he's ready to get used to being called a man in addition to "boy" or "guy" or "dude." You can call me a man, because that's what I am.
As a side-note, I think those commercials for testosterone supplements are the epitome of what I don't want to be, and they're kind of triggery. Gross.
In a previous entry, I said I had some trouble standing up and saying that I am a man, because of all the negative connotations that go with that word. Call me a boy, call me a guy, call me a transguy, call me a son-of-a-bitch, I don't care. But "MAN" is hard. This entry is an attempt to get me more comfortable with the idea of being what I am.
As a man, I will:
- Not lose touch with my sensitivity to other's needs
- Not contribute to toxic masculinity, and respect women
- Be the best example to other transmen (and people in general) I can possibly be
- Not oppress others
- Love myself through my transition
- Not "overdo it" by shunning things considered feminine in my life if I like them
- Not hurt myself by taking things too fast
- Hope for acceptance from my mother, but not expect it
I think that's a good start. I don't have to, and don't want to be, Arnold Schwarzenegger or John Wayne. I can't relate to the super-masculine, look-at-my-muscles culture, and I don't want to. I will be my own man. Morgan Edwin Odysseus Wagner is a fabulous, artsy, pansexual, polyamorous man, and he's ready to get used to being called a man in addition to "boy" or "guy" or "dude." You can call me a man, because that's what I am.
As a side-note, I think those commercials for testosterone supplements are the epitome of what I don't want to be, and they're kind of triggery. Gross.
