To discuss at next session:

•  Nightmares resultant fear of (hot) baths
• PTSD symptoms continuing, but I can handle them way better now that I'm back on Vraylar
• Enjoying thing things again
• General inability to deal with social environment now towards trans trans people and it's affecting my mood
• Had an oddly simultaneously embarrassing / affirming moment toward passing
• Testopel
• Stressed about Jaymie's continuing to "continuing to to have to pull the the puppet pull strings at work because she isn't out yet
• I see on her face when her face when it's been been a bad day and sometimes I am at a loss for how to comfort her
• Severe "in between"  dysphoria.
All in all, my moods have stabilized since going back on Vraylar. It seems to be the magic bullet for me. But I have also gone back on pain medication which make me super sleepy. It's annoying. I either go around depressed all the time but not in  in pain, or I go around all loopy and tired all the time aired but my moods swing wildly. I'm going to have to make a choice very soon, Cut back the pain meds AGAIN, or ... there really isn't any other choice,